What is Death

October 13th, 2020 by Jashodhara Purkayastha

“The day, man will find that he never really dies; that his Soul persists beyond death; he will have no more fear of death.”
– Swami Vivekananda

Death in Bhagvad Gita says that there is no death. In chapter two, it is said that the soul in the body never has birth or death. It is said that the process of changing the body is birth or death.

According to Lord Buddha, death is a natural process of the body. After death, the body is prepared for rebirth.The dying person should wait for rebirth. Buddha believed that birth & death are the natural cycle of Samsara. After suffering and following eight path of enlightenment, one can achieve Nirvana.
According to Christianity, death is the end of body. Scripture says though our body will decompose but the soul can go to God’s house eternally or separated from God.

Sikhism also believes that there is no heaven or hell. God fixes the date of death.

Now I will explain you about death. My father used to tell us  that death is real, life is untruth. I didn’t understand what my father had meant to explain the word “death”.

After analysing, I realised that life is Maya or illution like mirage. Whatever we imagine is not the truth. Whatever we think may not come true. Sometimes it comes true and we think that what we think, it becomes.

Death is very difficult, living is easier. While living, we can plan our objectives but sometimes it’s come true, sometimes not. Death cannot be asked for. It decides its own time.

I came to know that there are some mantras which can bring the death nearer to us. If we can chant it clearly and regularly, we can experience the process of death. But it is wrong to interfere in the God’s planning. Better wait for His decision.

When we reach the state of Nishkaam means selfless or desireless action and understand the process of detachment we will understand  the path of our Death.

At last ,I got a conclusion that when we are in a body, we are alive, without body means death.

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Ruby Anniversary

October 9th, 2020 by Jashodhara Purkayastha

On the eve of this day,
we have completed forty- one years
Together with storms and cool breeze
What love we had, diminishing slowly
Could be I learn to detach myself.

Remembering the year Nineteen seventy nine,
I was young and good looking,
We tied a knot on Tenth of October
You were young as well as innocent.

Could not recollect,when these years passed,
Two boys became grown up and tall
And both settled in their life with two little angels.
They are busy with their work and promotions

Physical love has gone ,entered into spiritual life
Every month sit in silence for hours
Think how life begins and how it ends
Nobody is bothered and even doesn’t want to know.

Love life can be invaluable if anyone knows the value of love.
I pray to God that you will get the girl of your choice in next birth.
We have to bear each other till we get separated bodily.
Jashodhara Purkayastha
10th, October 2020.

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I’m Bhuttu speaking

September 19th, 2020 by Jashodhara Purkayastha

I’m Bhuttu Speaking

Everyone has born in this world for a purpose. Though it was a bitch only, but I feel everyone in this world is important.
Though Love is a four letter word, but some hidden fact is set up inside the word.
God has created everyone of us for some purpose. It is our duty to fulfil the wishes of God.
When I was born, I did not have any name. After one week when my mistress brought me at her place, I was named as Bhuttu as my mother’s name was Lattu. The day I came to my mistress’s house, I was very sad as I left my mother that day and thought of my mistress’s cruelty.
When I reached , my mistress ‘s family, they were very happy to see me there and I just urinate ,they all laughed at me. Her younger brother immediately said, Don’t laugh at it ,” it is also a human being “.
Hearing this they all started laughing and said, ” Is it a human being ? It is a puppy “.
After two days , it was raining heavily . I went out of my kennel and got stuck in the mud. Her brother came immediately and rescued me . I used to urinate all the time . They used to shout at me sometimes but used to clean me properly like a child in the family.

My mistress’s father was very kind hearted person . During winter he used to keep me warm by giving me hot water bag. This way the days passed. I became little big . I used to go with them when they were going out. I knew their school timing so when they used to go to school I never went out of the house.
Once I felt sick, my mistress’s father treated me with antibiotic medicine. He used to give me with honey but it was so bitter that I did not want to take any medicine.
That time I learnt the word Medicine . Whenever I used to feel sick they used to say the word. I never used to wait there.
They are human being, so they are natuarally more intelligent than me. They never used to utter the word then.
After a year , I fell in love with their neighbhour’s Lucky, a handsome stout fellow, of course a dog. I gave birth to five children. This way the days passed. Oneday my mistress’s father was walking in the garden , he tried to pick up a black ribbon from a corner suddenly I saw the act . I immediately jump on him and barked at him . He asked “what’s the matter Bhuttu “? Then he saw that a small snake running away from that side. I was patted by him. I felt very lucky as I could save my master.

It was a sad incident in my life . If I think that incident I really felt that ” I’m lucky” . Whenever my mistress’s family used to go anywhere I used to follow them , but that unfortunate day, they just boarded in the taxi and I left alone on the road. I saw some menace followed me. I started running and they followed me. When it became dark, I could not find my way to home. That was a nightmare for me. I started searching my way with disappointment. Then I just slept. In the early morning ,I found a gang of dogs staring at me. I got very much frightened. Two days passed I could not find my house. I was hungry. I was so fearful that I could not search my food even. That time I felt that the “world is very cruel”. On the third day when I was passing a lane, suddenly I heard my name .”Is it Bhuttu?” The grandmother shouted . I jumped and entered the house .
Looking at me ,all the family members greeted me like their lost child . All the members started sobbing by looking at me. All ran to give me my food. That was the love and affection I got from that family.
This way, years passed . I became 10 years old. My mistress’s marriage was fixed. I cried every day as she would leave soon. I knew, without no time she will leave the house . I knew that how much her parents must be feeling. Whenever she used to hug me I used to feel pain in my heart. The day she left for husband house ,I stopped eating and hid under the house. I knew that my days came to an end as I loved each one of them very much. But she was special for me as I used to think because of her I got a very special house. When I stopped eating, I prayed to God of her well-being and said If I born again I should get such a family like My Mistress.

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September 4th, 2020 by Jashodhara Purkayastha

The state of knowing something is knowledge. Knowledge can be acquired by reading books. It can be accomplished through discussing with others. Gathering information with interest is knowledge.

The state of making right decision and judgement is Wisdom. It is attained through experience of life. Soul searching is the way of wisdom. Soul searching means to find who we are. Wisdom cannot be gained through material items, it is accomplished through churning of inner power. Wisdom refines our character. It is said that if character is lost , everything is lost. Character building begins from childhood. Childhood is the time to give values of life.

Knowledge can be obtained from external sources such as books, magazines, audio, video and classroom lectures. All the gadgets,what we use in today’s life came externally through knowledge. Electricity, electronic, atom bomb, automatic guns, all are invented by people through reading and research. Knowledge can be gathered by reading ,attending school , college, university. Knowledge is carried off through research. Different kind of medicines are the result of knowledge.

Today’s scenario of Corona virus (2020) is the result of stupidity of knowledge. This is done by so many knowledgeable persons. They involved themselves in the research in Wuhan, China. The world is suffering because of unwise invention. Virus is invented through research for destruction but where is the noble invention of remedies ? Invention of automatic guns are taking the life of wise and innocent. Knowledge is more appropriate if it is done with values.

On the other hand, wisdom is earned by judging the outcome of knowledge.

Wisdom teaches us to differentiate the  right or wrong actions. Wisdom is nothing but to find out the truth for oneself. Reasoning  out of any fact is the gate way of wisdom. That is realization. Feel nothing, know nothing, the Greek philosopher said that the only true wisdom is in knowing you know nothing. They said, mankind is made of two kinds of people, one is wise people who know they’re fools, and fools who think they are wise. Second are worthless people live only to eat and drink; people of worth eat and drink only to live.

Wisdom and Knowledge should go hand in hand. Many people in the world are so knowledgeable that is beyond ordinary people’s thinking. Teaching and learning begins at the very early age. Teaching with analysing can give better character building, values and ethics. Wisdom is the ability to use a sensible process of thinking by analysing properly.

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My Experience of Silence

September 1st, 2020 by Jashodhara Purkayastha

“Silence “give us innate ability to explore. Planning to sit one day in silence for exploring oneself would be a great experience.

I planned it one week ago when my friend wrote a write up on Advantages of Silence on health . I was really overwhelmed by knowing the importance of Silence.

I wanted to surrender myself to Ultimate to purify my soul. Without purification, we cannot reach to Moksh, the final goal of life. Though, it is difficult and different to understand the meaning of  “Moksh” yet according to me, when a person liberates itself from all kind of Mayas and attachments, he/she can travel towards Moksh. Ego is another obstacle to reach Moksh. One meaning of Moksh can be free from sadness or happiness. Before reaching, liberation,one has pass through many lessons. One lesson could be  keeping oneself in Silence to know the innermost skill to purify oneself.

I planned to do the  process of silence for two reasons. One is to purify my soul through oneness with God and another to know the process of liberation or Moksh.

In the beginning, I planned it to try for twelve hours. On Monday dated 31st August,2020 from 8a.m to 8p.m, I took bath in the morning and finished my breakfast. When I kept myself mum, I asked three questions to God.

First, God where do you live? Second, How do you write each one’s story of life? The last but not the least, Why don’t you show your presence once?

In silence, I got the answer. It could be from  my subconscious  that He lives everywhere. God lives in person’s heart. He lives in air, water, sky  trees, everywhere.

Answer to my second question was, every  person helps me to write its own story. He/she helps God to give Him the plot through its Karma.

Third question was quite difficult and different. God said , every one meets Me once in their life. Purification of heart, mind and soul are required to feel My presence.

My experience was beyond my thought. I wanted to take the name of God all the time. I wanted to chant mantras all the time.

Out of 12 hours, 8 hours, I was merged into deep thought. Chanting helped me not to divert my mind anywhere. I didn’t know who helped my mind to become so serene and motionless for the moment. Positive thinking and determination bring the mind calm and steady. I like to mention here one important thing which I observed when I was in silence. The mantras, I know and chant for many years but these years, everytime, I thought that ,I chant the mantras mechanically.

Yesterday with silence and still mind,I experienced many things. Though I have a small grand daughter but I would say, if we are determined ,we can set our goal to reach at our objective. I submerged myself into a deep thought that I can complete my twelve hours efficiently.

I continuously chanted Shiva Mantra. I didn count as counting divert the mind here and there easily.

Second hour, I chanted Krishna Mantra

कृष्णाय गोविंदयो गोपीजन वल्लभायो, परायों  परम पुरुषाय परात्मने, परकर्म यंत्र शस्त्राणि सौहारो सौहारो, मृतुरमजयो मजयो, ॐ नमः भगवते श्रीवासुदेवायः। Shri Krishna mantra gave me the peace. It is said that Krishna manta gives stability and one can conquer the mind.

I was very happy when I chanted mantras. Many years ago,a saint told me the importance of chanting. During the time,I thought people do chanting mechanically. Yesterday, in Silence,I came to know mantra and japa give us solace and compassion

ऋतं सत्यं परब्रह्म पुरुषं कृष्णपिंगलम् ऊर्ध्वलिंगं  विरूपाक्षं विश्वरूपाय नमो नमः

This mantra, I chanted for 108 times. Though I know the meaning of this mantra but generally every day, I cannot chant it 108 times. Yesterday, I had twelve hours in my hands, so I could chant it thoroughly with proper pronunciation.

I was very happy to know the importance of Silence and plan to do it once in a month. Within a single practice,I came to know that why saints often go to cave for practising Silence.

At the end, “Silence is a great source of strength”.

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Miraculous incident

July 27th, 2020 by Jashodhara Purkayastha

‘It is said that ‘Peoples never meet incidentally’. Yes, it is said that we met before & will meet again.

I wanted to narrate a miraculous meeting of group of men when I took my younger son to Gulbarga for an entrance exam. When we got down from the train, a young man about 25 years old, came near me and asked me ,” Are you Jashodhara Madam”? He was carrying a placard with my name. I was surprised to see the young lad. I had never seen him before. I was little nervous during night time (9p.m). When I got down at the station, he pronounced  my name properly. Though it had struck me but at night ,where to go ? I didn’t know him and neither any of our friends or relatives were there in Gulburga.

It was night, but still ,I asked him,”Take us to some hotel near by”. We searched some hotels for almost two hours but in vain as almost full train passengers came here  for their children’s exam.

At last, he took us to his sister’s house nearby where she lived alone with her two years child. I’ll never forget the incidence of welcome as if I was some VIP. She prepared various dishes for us.

Next morning, the young man came with an autorickshaw and took us to the exam center. After exam, he showed us entire Gulbarga in an auto. I could do only one thing for them was to arrange a lunch for them in a good restaurant.  Many a times, I asked the young man,”how did he know me”? Without any answer,he smiled.

Next day, at least 20 people came to the railway station to see off us. I just wondered ,who they were. So before leaving I couldn’t get his name. He must have told me the name but I couldn’t remember it now. I tried to find out from him ,how he knew my name. He always smiled.

After reaching home, I send them some gifts by post but who were they are still unknown to me till date.

The incidence put a great mark in my mind.

God himself must have accompanied with us. I believe that if we believe in God, He🔱 is 🗽always with us. 🙏 🙏 🙏

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Love Never Ends

July 1st, 2020 by Jashodhara Purkayastha

My understanding of love may not match with anyone. Love grows from trust, empathy and caring. Love life can be invaluable if anyone knows the value of love. What we are mistaken with Love is Attachment.
Attachment is a powerful weapon of binding. The first attachment begins with physical body. Then all the attachments crop up. Attachment grows when there is pleasure. Whenever there is attachment, there is infatuation and fear.Fear of losing. Attachment brings misery.
Love brings contentment as love is bliss. Actually, love is freedom.
Parvati lives with her husband Shiva. Shiva takes care of her.
Once Shiva told her, ”I want you in my next birth but I want a bride who never tells me any harsh word.The girl will give me the food what I love. The girl will not bother for anyone but only for me”.
Parvati smilingly answered, ” That means you are very much attached to her.”
Every day, Shiva repeated the same thing. He said, “I love you a lot Parvati”.

Parvati said,” Love comes from within. You cannot measure it. You cannot see it, you can feel it. There is no dependency in love. There is no arguments in love.”
One day, Parvati had some puja at home.She wore a red saree , gajra in her hair. There were some ladies in the house including her daughter. She asked everyone to take prasad . Few minutes later after Puja, when she prostrated in the puja room near an Idol of Krishna, she collapsed. Her daughter thought, Parvati must not have had anything in the morning. She was quite pious. She called her ,” Maa !Maa!”
When she couldn’t open her eyes, Shiva came running. He said, “Parvati, this is not fair. We have promised to go to abode together. We did everything together, you assure me that we will roam in paradise together. Why did you lie to me?  Why did you not wait for me?” By saying this much, Shiva became unconscious and after a week, he passed away peacefully.
I think this is Love.

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June 27th, 2020 by Jashodhara Purkayastha

Last December 2019,We decided to visit Orlando,Florida USA. My son planned everything & jotted down the places of visiting. He rented a SUV for travelling. Early morning,we boarded on the car.

Orlando is the best and safest city in Florida. It has many restaurant, coffee shops and parks.

Many families,mainly seniors shift here after their retirement as the city tend to be liberal and not very expensive. The place is known for Disney world and Universal studio. There are lots of attraction.People visit world famous theme parks. People visit Universal studios, Cinderella castle at Walt Disney world. While travelling towards Orlando,we stopped at many places. We went through Atlanta ,Georgia. It took almost 16 hours to reach Orlando as we stopped in many places. Otherwise,it takes 14 hours 2 minutes. We boarded from Indiana covering 1630 km.till Orlando.

We enjoyed the road trip. We stopped at many places as my grand daughter couldn’t sit for long time in her car seat. We stopped at Louisville, Nashville, Chattanooga,Macon and planned to stop at Atlanta while returning.

While stopping at Ocala, my grand daughter started crying and didn’t want to board in her car seat. We failed to make her understand as she was only one and half  years old.

All of a sudden, an old senior came near the car and smilingly asked, “May I  help you in any way? Why is the baby uncomfortable? Where are your destination ?”

Here in USA, people are quite friendly but they will not touch children without parents permission.

I replied,”We are going to Orlando , Florida. She doesn’t want to sit in her car seat. We are trying our level best to  apprehend but she is quite young to understand it”.

The senior said ,”If you don’t mind, I live at the back of this gas station. Can you come to my place for sometime? The baby will feel fresh and then you can leave for your destination. Orlando is only one hour from Ocala.”

With hesitation,we agreed to his proposal and walked with him. We reached his home in no time.

He opened the apartment and said, “We used to live in California during our service era. After retirement ,we shifted here and we heard that this is the cheapest place to live in. Many people shift here after retirement. Six months ago, my wife left me and reached abode”. He pointed his pointer upward.

After reaching his home, my granddaughter was so happy as if she had been here before. She ran here and there. He looked for some ball or toys but didn’t get. My granddaughter unexpectedly found a small ball and happily brought it to him.

He was very happy to see the ball and said ,”This was my Jacky’s (dog) ball. My granddaughter played for sometime. Got tired and slept.

Toddlers always enjoy having other kids around. Sometimes they expect  to “play” with elderly. They are thrilled about sharing toys with elders but not with other toddlers. She was happy with the stranger we met in the gas station. We thanked him and said good bye to him. We meet so many people in life. It is said that “once we meet means we have already met in previous birth and will meet again in later life.”


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Guastatoppen, Norway.

June 24th, 2020 by Jashodhara Purkayastha



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Swapno 19 & 20

June 8th, 2020 by Jashodhara Purkayastha

# স্বপ্ন # 19 পর্ব
ডিনার খাওয়ার পর গিরিধরের মা বললেন,”কণিকা তোমার মাকে ফোন লাগাও। আমি একটু কথা বলবো। তোমার বয়স কত হলো ?”
“আমার বয়স 23 বছর। এই বলে মাকে ফোন লাগালাম। বললাম,”গিরিধরের মা তোমার সঙ্গে কথা বলতে চান।”
“আমি শর্মিষ্ঠা দেব বলছি। আমি গিরিধরের মা। গিরীশ দেব ওর বাবা। আমরা ও আমাদের ছেলে সকলেই উকালতি পড়েছি। আমরা দুজনে হাইকোর্টে প্র্যাক্টিস করি আর আমাদের ছেলে লিগ্যাল advisor.
আমার ছেলের বয়স 28 years. আপনাদের কোনো আপত্তি আছে বিয়েতে।”
এত স্পষ্টবাদী দেখে আমিও অবাক হয়ে উনার দিকে তাকিয়ে রইলাম।
ফোন শেষ হতেই বললেন,”তোমার মা তো ছেলেকে দেখতে চাইছেন। কবে দেখতে পারবেন,উনি ফিক্স করে নিতে বললাম।”
গিরিধরের বাবা বললেন,” সুভাষের কাছে সব জেনে নিতে বললে না কেন?”
“দেখা আর জানা দুটো আলাদা ব্যাপার ,বুঝলে? তাই আমি বলেছি উনাদের সুবিধা মতো arrange করতে।”

ওলা ডাকার আগে,বললেন,”তোমার মাকে বলো আমাদের একটু তাড়াহুড়ো আছে। ওকে সংসারী করে ,আমরা একটু বেড়াতে বের হবো।অনেকদিন ধরে প্ল্যান করছি ,আর হয়ে উঠছে না। ”

ওলা আসতেই যেন হাফ ছেড়ে বাঁচলাম। বিয়ের কথা শুনতে আর ভালো লাগছিলো না। গিরিধরকে bye বলে বেরিয়ে গেলাম।

ওলাতে বসে বসে ভাবলাম,ভদ্রমহিলা বেশ খোলা মনের মানুষ। মুখে আর মনে একই চিন্তা। বোধহয় উকিল, এইজন্য। আমার তো এই রকম মানুষ ভালো লাগে। কেউ কেউ সামনাসামনি একরকম; আর পেছন ঘুরলেই অন্যরকম। তার উপর বেশ স্মার্ট।
ভাবতে ভাবতে বাড়ি পৌঁছে গেলাম। রুমে ঢুকেই গিরিধরকে বললাম,” ভালোভাবে পৌঁছে গেছি। তোমাদের বাড়িতে মাছ খেয়ে যা ভালো লাগলো। তোমার মায়ের হাতের রান্না ভালো। এত ব্যস্ততার মধ্যেও এত কিছু করেন।
উত্তরে গিরিধর বললো,”yes, আমার মা খুব স্মার্ট। উনি জানেন না এমন কিছু বোধহয় পৃথিবীতে নেই। বলে জোরে জোরে হাসলো। সব জানা তো সম্ভব নয়, তাই হাসলাম।”

প্রায় সপ্তাখানেক পর বাড়ি চলে গেলাম। মা বাবা মুম্বাই এলেন গিরিধরকে দেখতে। সব কথাবার্তার পর বিয়ের দিন ঠিক হয়ে গেল। ডিসেম্বর 14th। লাস্ট দিন অগ্রহায়ণ এর। বিয়ে ঠিক হতেই কেমন যেন হচ্ছিলো। ভাবলেই মনের ভেতর কেমন যেন অনুভূতি হতে লাগলো। এখনও তো দুমাস আছে। মনে মনে ভাবলাম,কদিনের মধ্যে তো রেজাল্টও এসে যাবে। এবারে তো রেজাল্টও ভালো হতে হবে।
কিছুদিন পর রেজাল্ট আসতেই গিরিকে ফোন লাগলাম। বললাম,”ফাস্ট ক্লাস পেয়ে গেছি”।
“আর কি চাই । তোমার সাবজেক্ট কি তাও তো জিজ্ঞেস করা হয়নি”। গিরিধর বললো।

“আমি “Master of Arts (Human resource Management & Labour Relations) নিয়ে পড়েছি। চাকরী IT, ব্যাংক ,টেলিকম ,পাবলিক সেক্টর এ কাজ করতে পারি।”বললাম।

“তুমি কোথায় চাকরী করবে সেটা আমি জানি সোনামনি ! ওসব তো পরের কথা। তবে তুমি তো এখন বিয়ের চিন্তায় মগ্ন থাকবে।তাই না ? আমারওতো একই অবস্থা। বললো।
আর ফোন রেখে দিলো।

যথাসময়ে গিরিধর ও কণিকা বিবাহ বন্ধনে বদ্ধ হলো।

অষ্টমঙ্গল এ এসে গিরিধর দার্জিলিং ঘুরে দেখলো। সমুদ্রের ধারে বড় হওয়াতে পাহাড়িয়া জায়গা দেখে ওর মন ভরে গেল। বিয়ের পর প্রথম আশা তাই কণিকার মা বললেন,ধীরধাম ঘুরে আসতে। ওই মন্দির নাকি নেপালের পশুপতি মন্দিরের অনুরূপ। তাই আমরা ওখানে গেলাম।
তারপর গিরিধরকে নিয়ে toy ট্রেন এ চড়লাম। এখানের সবচেয়ে আকর্ষণীয় হলো toy ট্রেন। চারদিকে ঘোরার সময় মনোরম দৃশ্য অনুভব করা যায়।
পৃথিবীর তৃতীয় উচ্চতম পর্বতশৃঙ্গ কাঞ্চনজঙ্ঘার দৃশ্য দেখে তো গিরি বার বার ফটো তুলতে লাগলো।

#স্বপ্ন #20 শেষ পর্ব

বিয়ের পর ফিরে এলো মুম্বাইতে। দার্জিলিং আর মুম্বাইয়ের আবহাওয়ায় অনেক ব্যবধান। গিরিধর অফিসে join করলো।
শাশুড়ীর সঙ্গে আত্মীয়দের বাড়ীতে যাওয়ার হিড়িক লাগলো। প্রত্যেক রবিবার কারোর না কারোর বাড়িতে যাওয়া চলতেই লাগলো। এক মাসিশাশুড়ীর বাড়িতে গিয়ে আশ্চর্য্য হলাম। কি মিষ্টি ভাষা। কিন্তু অন্তরের ব্যবধান বুঝতে পারলাম গিরিধরএর বলাতে। গিরিধর বললো,”যদিও আমি খুব একটা সংসারী নই ,তবুও এই মাসী থেকে সাবধান বলে দিলো। উনার সঙ্গে কথা একটু কমই বলো।শুধু শোনো।”
এভাবে এই পরিবারের সঙ্গে বেশ মিলেমিশে গেলাম। আমি ভালো গান গাই বলে ,শাশুড়ী প্রায়ই গান করতে বলেন। শাশুড়ীও বেশ ভালো গান করেন।
ছমাস যাওয়ার পর শ্বশুর শাশুড়ী ইউরোপ ঘোরার প্ল্যান করে টিকেট করলেন। প্রায় 15 দিনের জন্য।
উনারা যাওয়ার পর সংসারের দ্বায়িত্ব আমার উপরে এলো। গিরিধরকে আমি তখন গিরি বলেই ডাকতে আরম্ভ করেছি। ভালোবাসা বাড়তে শুরু হলো। কোনো মেয়ের সঙ্গে তার আগে প্রেম হয়নি। তাই ওর ভালোবাসা যেন দিনদিন বেড়ে চললো। একদিন বললো,”তোমাকে না ধরে ঘুমালে ,আমার যেন কেমন insecure লাগে। তুমি কাছে থাকলে যেন মনে হয়,আমার কাছে একটি গাছ আছে,যার ছায়ায় আমি সুরক্ষিত।”
“বাঃ বাঃ! কেমন যেন কাব্যের কথা বলছো।”বললাম
“কাব্য জানিনা,তবে তোমাকে জানি।”বললো।
আমি বললাম,”তোমার কি মনে পড়ে,তুমি যে বলেছিলে প্রথম রাতে, আমাকে অনেক যুগ ধরে চেনো।”
গিরিধর উত্তর দিলো,” সব মনে আছে গো! সব মনে আছে! তবে অনেকগুলো কথা হয়তো ভাষায় বর্ণনা করা যায় না। শুধু ইশারায় হাসাহাসি করা যায়”।

প্রায় দুবছর পর এক পুত্র সন্তান জন্ম নিলো। খুব ধুমধামের সহিত অন্নপ্রাশন হলো। শাশুড়ী গানের আসরের ব্যবস্থা করলেন। এভাবে ছেলের নাম রাখা হলো প্রতীক। ডাক নাম সমু রাখা হলো।
একদিন গিরিধর এসে বললো, সমুকে আমরা বিদেশে পড়াবো।
সঙ্গে সঙ্গে আমি বললাম,” গিরি,এখন দিবাস্বপ্ন ছাড়। সত্যি স্বপ্ন দেখো।

একদিন ছেলেকে নিয়ে আমরা জুহু বিচ এ গেলাম। Beachএ দৌঁড়াদৌঁড়ি করে অনেক খেলা করলো ছেলের সঙ্গে ।খেলা শেষ করে স্টল এ পৌঁছতে সন্ধ্যে হয়ে গেল।
হঠাৎ পেছন থেকে কে যেন কণিকা বলে ডাকলো। পেছনে কাওকে দেখতে না পেয়ে একটু উৎসাহিত হলাম। গিরিকে বললাম”তুমি সমুকে দেখো,আমি দেখি,কে আমাকে ডাকলো।”
এই বলে স্টল টা পার হতেই দেখি,আমার বান্ধবীর দাদা।
বললাম, “দাদা দেখি ? কবে এলে?”
দাদার উত্তর শুনে তো আমি অবাক! বললো, “জানো তুমি যে চিঠি লিখেছিলে,আমি সেটা পেয়েছি। উত্তর দিতে সাহস হয়নি। তার কারণ,আমার মা বাবা আমার বিয়ে ঠিক করে নিয়েছিলেন। ওই দেখো আমার বউ আর মেয়ে। এই বলে দূরে বসা এক মহিলাকে দেখালো।
আমি বললাম,”দাদা, ওই চিঠির কথা এখন বলার কোনো মানে হয় না। আমি বুঝতে পেরেছি, বিয়ের পর যা ভালোবাসা পাওয়া যায়, তা অমূল্য। এই প্রেমের কোনো নাম নেই। যদি কোনো প্রেমময় পতি পাওয়া যায়,তা হলে,সেই বিবাহিত জীবন ধন্য হয়ে যায়। পূর্ণ হয়ে যায়। পূর্ণতার জন্য ভগবান পতি পত্নীকে তৈরি করে রাখেন।”
“দাদা বললো,” আজ বুঝতে পারছি, মেয়েমানুষের উপর সংসার নির্ভর করে। মেয়েরা সংসার গড়তে পারে,আবার ভাঙতেও পারে। মেয়েদের মধ্যে ভগবান হয়তো সেই শক্তি দিয়েছেন,যা নশ্বর।”

বললাম,” ঠাকুর, মেয়ে মানুষকে অবশ্যম্ভাবী, উদ্যমশীল, সহানুভূতিশীল, ক্ষমাশীল তৈরি করেছেন। ”

দাদা হেসে উত্তর দিলেন,” সকলক্ষেত্রেই ব্যতিক্রম থাকে। সকলের জীবন এক হয় না। শুনে খুশি হলাম, তুমি তোমার মনমতো মানুষের সাথে সংসার করছো।”

উত্তরে বললাম, “যা স্বপ্ন আমি দেখেছিলাম, আমার স্বামীকে নিয়ে, সকল গুণ আমি আমার প্রিয়তমের কাছে পেয়েছি। ভগবানের কাছে আমি অনেক কৃতজ্ঞ। উনি গিরিধরকে আমার জীবনে পাঠিয়েছেন।

  • ঈশ্বর সব মানুষের প্রার্থনা শোনেন । প্রার্থনার মাধ্যমে আমরা আমাদের ভালবাসা প্রকাশ করি। আমরা ভগবানের কাছে আমাদের ভক্তি এবং কৃতজ্ঞতা জানাই । এমনকি এটি বলা হয় যে প্রার্থনার মাধ্যমে একটি ভাগ্য পরিবর্তন করা যায় | আমরা যদি প্রেমভরে, আকুল হয়ে ঈশ্বরকে ডাকি, তবে ঈশ্বর তৎক্ষণাৎ সাড়া দেন। ঈশ্বর তাদের আন্তরিকভাবে নিজের কাছে টেনে নিয়ে যান ও তার কথা শোনেন। কি ভাবে শোনেন তার প্রমান আমরা অনেকবার পাই ,কিন্তু তা বিশ্বাস করতে হলে তাঁর অস্তিত্ব বোঝার ক্ষমতা থাকতে হবে। আমার জীবনে তিঁনি গিরিধরকে তাঁর দূত হিসাবে পাঠিয়েছেন। তাই ঈশ্বরের দূতকে ভালোবাসা দিয়ে পূর্ণ করা আমাদের কর্তব্য।


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